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The Price of Love

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I relive every second in agonizing detail. Staring at the ultrasound at my perfectly formed, yet perfectly still baby. Reality hadn’t hit me yet as I scanned the screen for the smallest movement. He wasn’t kicking. Spinal bifida I thought. Thoughts bombarded my mind. The advancement in fetal surgery, the prognosis was so much better …

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Silence

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No sound can reach me floating high above nothing else matters can’t remember love no cords to tie me no thoughts left to think dive deep in the water forever I will sink down into the blackness soul less nothing more the center of a moment the broken bloody core absorbing in the water I …

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Made for, but not Meant for

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Like skin that can’t feel touch. Like thoughts with no words. Questions with no answers Eyes that just see blurs. Made for, Designed for, Created to, but can’t.

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All I Ever Wanted

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All I ever wanted, is what will never be. Happily Ever After does not exist for me. I see it floating by just right outside my grasp. Dreams come and go, but they never last. All I ever wanted Was to wake up to your face. For the emptiness inside me to finally be erased. …

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If I must

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If I must be crushed, then let me be a rose,  be the beauty in the broken, the pain inside the prose. If I must be elastic, let my heart expand. Let me love in spite of what I do not understand. If I must know heartache, then let me be a light, so that …

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You don’t see me

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You dance in my sunlight you swim in my sea you walked through my ashes, but still don’t see me. My name you may speak it, my heart you don’t know, the parts I have buried, that I never show. For your convenience, I hold back the tears. I make friends with the shadows sleep …

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Don’t Wake Me

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Don’t wake me if I’m dreaming. Let me stay here in this place. Let me soak in all the beauty Let me stare into your face. Don’t wake me if I’m dreaming. Let me stay lost in you. Nothing else compares, Let this be my truth. Let me stay a little longer. Let me love ...

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I remember

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I am forged in fire. I am carved from stone The steel inside me, is the pain I own. So I stand. I stand and remember, I know this song by heart. All the broken pieces. All the familiar parts I remember…. The sun after the rain. I remember… When I learned to smile again. ...

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Sandcastles

I’m tired of building castles in the sand, watching dreams slip through my hands. The endless compromise the first to apologize.  Bending so I wont break. Giving afraid to take. Make it easy. Make it warm. Be the calm within the storm. I’ll be the shelter, from the pain. and then I’m left to cry ...

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Wholehearted

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In 2010 I left an abusive relationship. I remember the words she offered as an excuse for her treatment of me. “I use to be just like you, until I got tired of being nice and taken advantage of.” The six years since I have wondered with each new heartache that has came my way..IS ...

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My Legacy

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Thinking about my Granny today, about who I am and where I come from. I think you have to have a strong grasp of that to know where you are going. Her house was a hodge podge. Southwestern style wall decorations displayed proudly beside African Tigers. Blue willow dishes, ceramic Disney, Dutch Boy and Dutch ...

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My Something

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You’re the map I trace, the hope I hold. A carved out dream, my glimpse of gold. The prayer I pray, the steps I take, my excuse to dream, my smiles not faked. My someday… My maybe… My what if… You saved me. ~Radonna Hill

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You Really Must Be Magic

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There was no breath inside me, love had withered on the vine. my soul scorched like a desert  a desecrated shrine. . I think you must be magic. . Expanding the infinite  I begin to breathe My soul used up, and empty. has now forgot to grieve. . You really must be magic. . This ...

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Letting Go

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Im afraid of healing Forever sealing The gap between You and me Afraid to smile Cause you cant see it Afraid to laugh Because I won’t mean it Afraid to dream Cause you cant share it Afraid to sing Cause you cant hear it. Afraid of tomorrow Each day comes new Just leads further Away ...

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I didn’t cry.

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The two worst times when your heart is broken is when you lay down and try to sleep and those first few conscious seconds when you wake up. Sometimes sleep brings temporary amnesia. I find her in my dreams. Nothing changes there. Waking up, I have to accept the reality all over again. I am ...

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I Didn’t Choose You

You loved me, I know it with all my heart. I felt it in the way we touched. The way I’d catch you looking at me. We were happy. Brief and fleeting, but happy. Some of my very best memories are of you. I know you wondered why I shut down. Why I pulled away. …

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Free Feels Like Flying

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I wrapped myself in chains, for the security of it. Love, need, want, expectations. I had a plan. Solid, firm, forever. Rooted, buried deep in the ground. Connected, Centered. YOU. Expectations shattered Want flew away Need melted and love became liquid. My power once again my own. Free feels like flying.

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All I Ever Wanted

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  All I ever wanted, is what will never be. Happily Ever After does not exist for me. I see it floating by just right outside my grasp. Dreams come and go, but they never last. All I ever wanted Was to wake up to your face. For the emptiness inside me to finally be …

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Not Real

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I can’t hide the way I feel, or how I broke in pieces when you said it wasn’t real. I can’t un cry these tears I can’t erase the pain doesn’t hurt any less because it was a dream. My heart doesn’t know the difference. I was so wrapped up in you. I didn’t see …

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Not Mine

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I turn off the music it makes me feel to much. I’m not suppose to love you or hunger for your touch. I close my eyes when shooting stars go by. What good is wishing, if I can’t wish you mine. I close my eyes and try to dream, but the dream I love, is …

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Empty

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I’m lost inside this moment trapped beneath the sea holding on so tightly trying to calm the storm in me. My soul feels so empty hope is all but gone I try to find solace but its hard to carry on. I’m tired and I’m aching my dreams slip through my grasp I wonder if …

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Endurance

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I’ll cry softly, I’ll stand through the pain. Swim in the rivers, dance in the rain. Hope be my armor strength be my guide where there is fear I’ll let peace abide. Hold to the moments, tomorrow will bring. Let joy write the songs that I sing. Never forget the places I’ve been. embrace the ...

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Memory

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Long after the music stopped, and the lights went out, Memory sat in darkness. She was not afraid, the night was not unkind. She tried to stand, but was too weary. A light shone in the distance. She knew she must go. She just did not know how. She noticed pinned to her clothes were ...

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Love Is Eternal

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She wasn’t rich. She wasn’t famous. Her brilliance was known only to those she doctored with her self taught medical skills and to those she loved so much.   Even 17 years after she died, her love is still the base of everything I am. She was a mother to many, no matter how many ...

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Forgiveness

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  Forgiveness. I’ve never had trouble forgiving other people. Its easy. I can see the reasons behind some of their choices, and I realize that most people do not intend to hurt anyone else, that sometimes it is just a byproduct of their own experiences and pain. Hurt people, hurt people. Although this is a ...

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She is…

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She is the skip to my step, the curve of my lips. the light in the dark the sway to my hips. She is the magic in the ordinary. She is the ache at the end of every breath. She is my strength, when I have none left. She is the truth to every lie, ...

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Freedom

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My thoughts melted, my center was liquid. changing, bending, becoming. not restricted by design or reason. I danced inside you. Everything, and Nothing. Complete Freedom, Bound by no earthly law. Transcended… I became great and small. You divided, and defined me. Placed me upon a shelf. “Look at my Love” you said. Contained inside your ...

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My Something

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Your the map I trace the hope I hold a carved out dream my glimpse of gold the prayer I pray the steps I take my excuse to dream my smiles not faked my someday… my maybe… my what if… You saved me.

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A

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Round and Round the world spins, Ambiguous emotions, words with double meaning. I’m lost, bombarded with what I don’t understand. Weighed down with someone else’s pain. I try to stand, I fall again. Dizzying Chaos. I close my eyes and find you. My Calm, Your face makes the world slow down. I surrender. My thoughts ...

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Love is…

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Love is… elastic Expansive and free. My foundation, My wings. Love is.. liquid Flowing deep and wide. A river bringing life to the barren. Love is.. A moment dreams are redefined. wholeness actualized. Love is… a heartbeat. Infinity in a touch. the beginning, the end. Time stands still. Love is… a look when everything in ...

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Love Beyond

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Beyond the hope of having, beyond the veil of tears, a well of hope within me, holds me through the years. Beyond human expectation. Just beyond today. Everything inside me, Rises above the pain. Beyond understanding, beyond what words can say, Love beyond imagining, covers all the pain. Warm and sweet it glistens, alive and …

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A good day

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Don’t romanticize I say, Happy comes then goes away. Live for just the moment. Feel you melting into me. Hold what is. Don’t fit it to your dreams. Appreciate the beauty of staring in your eyes. Don’t think, Don’t wonder if your thoughts match mine. The center of this moment your hair falling in your …

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Hope

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The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over, but expecting a different result. I’m guilty of it I think everyone is. I hold on till my hands bleed. As long as there is hope, I give my all. I think sometimes hope is confused with want. You want something so bad …

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Nothing in this world

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I finally kept my pride and hailed a cab Those cuttin’ words you said were the last stab There’ll be no tears this time, they’ve all dried up No more sweet poison, I already drank that cup This tunnel’s dark, but there’s a little light glowing Just enough for me to run towards knowing Nothing …

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Life is a Roller Coaster

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I’ve had a lot of hurt in life. There is something familiar about it. Waking up is always the hardest part. The first few minutes you forget, or you think its just a bad dream, then you remember and relive the facts. Life the way you know it, the way you planned it, is never …

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My Familiar

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Surrender into torment facing my familiar nurtured inside me my palisade promise crushed filtered through your prism light created shadows I die daily choices an illusion peace cant reach me hopes song has faded this is what is left. how completely truth is twisted distorted I am redefined. disfigured I swallow my sadness. absorbing melding …

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House of Sorrow

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Promise lived in the house of Sorrow. She’d been there longer than she wanted. Tears burned here, and the silence echoed. She slept under blankets of pain. She carried the weight of memories around all day. She worked hard for Sorrow, but Sorrow never seemed to be finished. She wanted to leave this place. She ...

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Longing

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Restless whispers, with melancholy wings rests upon the weary making beggars of kings. Mysteries of wholeness glistens in her sun. Trees with heavy branches harvest still to come. Promise burst like flowers, from the fertile ground. Watered with new purpose free the dreams once bound. Bask inside the wonder of wanting to be found. ~Radonna ...

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I Just Need You

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Just like sunshine, dries the rain Standing in your truth, I breathe again. When I’m weary, aching, raw, you help me find the reasons, I see them all. Reason to hold on, Reasons to stand. I’m not alone now. I have a friend. Shadows can’t hide in an open heart. Before you, I never got ...

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Free

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My thoughts melted, my center was liquid. changing, bending, becoming. not restricted by design or reason. I danced inside you. Everything, and Nothing. Complete Freedom, Bound by no earthly law. Transcended… I became great and small. You divided, and defined me. Placed me upon a shelf. “Look at my Love” you said. Contained inside your ...

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Weight Loss Journal

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Day 208, 115 pounds lost so far. I’d always heard that weight loss was as much an emotional process as a physical one, but I never fully understood that until recently. When I started this journey my emotional health was the last thing on my mind, I was sick, desperately sick and if I didn’t ...

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The Ocean and the Moon

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I feel you ….said the ocean to the moon. You bewitch me so. The Ocean pounded purposefully against the shore. The moon smiled sadly her argent prism danced softly in the air. The ocean rolled greedily to capture the light. her waves reaching as high as they could reach. Ever constant Earth reminded the ocean ...

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Perfect place of wonder Love found a place to start after a lifetime of empty you fill up every part Melting into wholeness these feelings bright and new the pieces I was missing was always held by you. ~Radonna Hill

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Burn

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Aching lost the falling star from the heavens came burning through a midnight sky its life is but a flame. . Streaks across the darkness for a moment shining gold A million years now ashes its stories now been told. . A life is but a heartbeat, so shine while you are here. Burn brightly ...

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Just Give me you

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In the quite In your calm I find my pieces in your arms You’re my amazing my sweetest day my forever come what may. Dreams will shatter and memories fade hearts get broken everyday. They are just the glitter Baby you’re the gold. Take everything I have, just give me you to hold. By: Radonna ...

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